went back to malaysia last thursday til today..i juz got hme not long ago..my grandfather passed away last thursday morning..sadded..he's gone 4eva..he's not going to come back..my poor grandmother cried everyday..now she is all alone n nobody to accompany her..my other cousins n uncle aunty living wit her also wont tok to her much..my big aunt have to go her hse to accompany her n tok to her..cuz she duwan my grandmother to feel lonely n cry..i stil rmb how it felt like when i touched my grandfather's face..it was cold of course..we used dry ice to preserve him..n on the day we have to bury him, the person removed the dry ice n we touch my grandfather for the last time..his face was hard n frozen..poor him..every time i looked in the coffin i wil heartpain his body..it muz b very painful being frozen..n i always tel myself he is asleep n he didnt wake up cuz it is cold inside..he wil definitely wake up after we remove the ice..but he didnt..it is hard for mi to accept tat the person lying inside the coffin is actually my grandfather..the one hu looked after mi for 4 yrs+..play wit mi make mi laugh..used many ways juz to make mi smile when i cry..he was strong at tat time..but out of a sudden he juz become so weak tat he cant even walk properly n have to lie on the bed whole day..everything happened so fast..1 yr ago he is fine..walking around the hse, riding motorbike, buying tings back for mi to eat..1yr later he nid to depend on wheelchair n walking stick, wearing adult diapers n my grandmother nid to do everything for him..i'm not sure wat kind of illnesses he was suffering b4 he died..my mum say is cancer n duno wat other diseases..the doctor say can cure..is curable..but how come my grandfather stil ended up like tis??give all those stupid medication to make him suffer..eat so many kinds of medicine make his condition worsen only..

was toking among my uncle n cousins bout my grandfather's past n background..he n his bro was actually kena stolen by bad ppl n sell to another family at high price..n he lost his bro until few yrs back, he heard some1 say tat there is a old man hu looked alike to him..n he went to look for him secretly without acknowledging him..i duno the reason y he did tat..he has been a great father n a fantastic granfather n also the best great grandfather..my cousin was hospitalised n he looked after him for 1 whole week without any complains..my grandfather loves to help ppl hu nids help..he loves kids too..tats y i had so much fun when i was living wit him when i was small..my poor grandmother..lost 2 of her sons..now she lost her husband..the person hu spend the most time wit her..my grandfather loved my grandmother very much..whenever my grandmother nids help..he wil always be by her side..

i'm lucky to have him..but unlucky to lose him..